were finally getting somewhere
my aunt and i had an appointment with a doctor on tuesday, we explained everything thats been going on with my mother, and she agrees that she needs to be seen A.S.A.P ...
so on the 21st september(its the soonest we could all make it the same day lol) i will go to my mums, my aunt will drop by before me, unannounced, and as soon as my mum mentions i am going to visit my aunt will say that she'll stay to have a coffee with me... then shortly after the doctor will arrive and make out she is visiting all new patients in the area
then the fun begins...
she needs to be sorted though, she is quite often confused and disillusional now, shes a danger to herself and her husband. she keeps telling people that ''they are coming to kill her'' and shes evil tongued....her hygeine is almost nil and her stomach is extremely bloated and she can hardly walk.... from our description to the doctor, she said without seeing my mum and knowing for sure, it sounds like liver failure, which if thats the case, its very very serious ... the delusions etc come with alchohol abuse too...
im exhausted by it all
i went to see my brother about it yesterday and he wasnt all that bothered (on the surface) so i got quite angry, especially after all the crap i went through when i was young and him being the favourite etc etc, i got quite a different story from him, when i left home it was really really bad for him, it upset me to hear what he had been through, because even though i was treated unfairly it made me feel better knowing at least he was okay...i bet my dad never knew about it all as i never knew any of it, had i known i would have taken him to live with me
but even after everything he said, he still said to his girlfriend... ''but please dont think bad of my mum after hearing all this''
we still love her regardless... we just dont like her very much
i shall make it up to him or i wont rest lol
.... hes going to afghanistan in a couple of weeks too, my mum doesnt know, we arent going to tell her
but hes having to change his point of contacts, because if anything happens to him and they go to see my mum it would finish her off ... its awful enough for my brother without him having to think of things like that, and is upsets me when he says....'' why did we get a mum like we did''
if only i could put her in a middle aged peoples home ... someone should open one
Today at 8:19 pm by 
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that everything goes to plan on Tuesday
R.I.P Scouse xx Saffron xx and Roxanne xx I will Never Walk Alone..Still Miss you all. 
